Just as you were feeling down and lonely
An angel came to me flying
Could not imagine someone like you
In Beijing all alone, tearful and crying

No one knows how hurt you’ve been
The brain can’t heal what the heart had seen
How the heart numbs the body and soul
Inside it makes you feel so old
Alone inside, the feeling’s cold

Just when you thought all you’ll feel is frost
In the chapel, you’ll find not all hope is lost
Night comes, you’ll start to pray
Hoping the Lord will wipe your tears away
Until the Lord shines you a road
I’ll be your friend, to lighten your load


A poem by my friend......thanks Jeffrey

“I think of you often and make no outward show, but what it means to lose you, no one will ever know. You wished no one farewell, not even said good-bye; you were gone before I knew it, and only God knows why. You are not forgotten nor will you ever be, as long as life and memories last, I will remember thee.”

“To some you may be forgotten, to others a part of the past, but to me who loved you dearly, your memories will always last. Nothing can be more beautiful than the memories I have of you. To me, you were someone special; God must have thought so too! If tears could build a staircase and memories a lane, I would walk all the way to heaven, and bring you back again.”

"I promised you my heart and soul forever. For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul. Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage."

"Nunc scio quit sit amor."(Translated from Latin, means; "Now I know what love is.”)

“I love you my darling, always and forever. This is my promise to you!”

“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation. Death ends a life, not a relationship. I love you my darling. With every last breath in my body and blood in my veins, I will love and protect you always. My promise to you is forever.”


from http://thestjohnlady.blogspot.com/2009/05/sad-farewell-to-true-legend_05.html?zx=78366087f8704379

nice right?

actually this is a cut n paste from my chinese blog entry a couple of months back.....

i think there are a lot of interesting stories i get to hear or experience in beijing but just havent got the time to blog n share abt it yet.....will write soon....i hope

比如说见习的时候，在医院跟医生查房的时候，或老师上课的时候提到自己的经验能学到或听到很多有趣的东西。有一个七十多岁的老人，抽了一辈子的烟（六十年的烟），两年前在公园的一个戒烟活动上决定戒烟，说“烟可以不抽，饭不可以不吃”。他是因为心动脉硬化而心绞痛半夜入院，做了搭桥手术。跟他提起该把他每天两杯低浓度的白酒戒掉，他说“酒可以不喝，饭不可以不吃”。

老师说很多时候劝那些年轻小伙子或中年人为了身体健康戒烟什么的，他们都不肯，像是看破红尘的说什么人谁无死，该抽的烟就抽，该喝的酒就喝，而往往等到他们心绞痛，感觉到心慌的时候（有一种要死的感觉），他们之后都变成小绵羊，非常听医生的话，有过于而无不及。

Being Still

 

Been feeling kinda vexed lately. Stress from school and from personal problems, and I guess a lot of people out there can relate to it as u were once a student or u don't exactly need to be of a specific role in order to know what stress feels like and what it can do to you. Different people react to stress differently. Sure there are different levels of stress and since it is an emotion generated by the psychological pressures from all over the place, it is really hard to measure and dangerous to label one's stress as more or less than the other person. Many people also take it out differently, maybe exercise, mediation, drinking, indulging in their hobby of gardening, singing etc. There really isn't a one package fits all, agree? So I am just going to discuss from the angle of releasing stress or finding release in religion. Well, I am a Christian by the way but probably I guess there might be some little things here and there that u may agree with me….

Well, lately I have been stressed, stress from personal problems and exams mainly and others and it can be kind of tiring, cause anxiety attacks and can really be driving me up the wall sometimes. Sometimes it feels like there is so much being piled on, and then u are struggling to stay afloat, and there maybe other pressures that make u doubt about the future or the immediate future, then as a Christian, sometimes we get the advice Psalms 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God"…so I was thinking what is the idea of being still? The story of Jesus calming the Storm Mark 4:35-40 comes to mind….how to be still when the boat is in a storm but the Christ calmed it and when I read it sometimes, I will think about the redundant struggle we so often put forth…..

Its like swimming. If you have a bad cramp while swimming or are a non-swimmer and are thrown into a pool or even open water, i guess everyone's first reaction is to panic and struggle in the water. Not many people know or at least can remember at that first instant, that the right thing to do first is to actually just try to stop struggling and lie still on the surface of water and wait for help to come. Well, if u keep struggle, u are wasting energy, moving the molecules of water away from you and "digging" more space for u to be part of the water body and then the worst part is when somebody comes and save you, there will be unnecessary struggle and will make the whole rescuing process even more tiring and difficult to carry out. You get where I am coming from?

I think many times we struggle on our own unnecessarily, hoping that whatever we do will make it better but a lot of times it doesn't. So we have to commit the issues into God's hands and then stop struggling and wait on him. It's not asking u to totally not do anything but to do to ur best and then leave the rest to God. Don't struggle in the water but be still…..I know its difficult caz I always fluctuate between the 2 too but we need to learn to lean on God…..

Eagles are different…they soar…relying on the under wind…not like normal birds which flap all the way……